Well this years 4th was.... just another day. It's a day to spend with family but as usual my "family" secluded my older brother and myself. My younger brother on the other hand was the center of attention yet again. See in my family my older brother and I are outcasts. Allow me to explain. My mother and bio-dad got together. Had me and my older brother, James, and then got divorced. My mom met my step-dad. They had a son, Patrick. Granted my bio-dad is a fucking homophobic, racist, lowlife asshole, but that's beside the point. The way I view my "family" is: My mother, the man she fell in love with, their "perfect" son, and then there is my older brother and me. We are just the children from her previous marriage. Growing up James and I were given a decent living experience. When Patrick was born everything change. This fucking kid gets away with anything, and gets everything. It's fucking annoying. He never get punished, he has no responsibilities, he is bought whatever he wants and doesn't get in trouble when he DESTROYS his things. I am 19 and still have chores and get punished. The only difference is now my punishments are being kicked out of the house. Which, by the way, I pay rent at. Same goes for James. Ugh. I am severely annoyed now.
If someone handed you a book and you realized it was about your life. Would you read it to the end?
I would. I don't like surprises. Though it's not even just that. I don't believe things are set in stone so maybe I can change some things around to have a better/happier life. I just want to look back and say I was happy with how I lived my life and if I can know ahead of time weather or not I will and I can change it. I would.
So, it's no secret I like girls. The only problem I have is the assholes who say it's wrong, or that it's a choice I have made, or that it's a sin. Uhm, no. Last time I checked I have always liked girls. I didn't wake up one day and say to myself, "I am going to make myself fucking miserable for the rest of my life. WHOOP!!" Dumbass motherfuckers. God, I hate people.
Speaking of God, I KNOW God loves me but I have been kicked out of more churches than I can count under the pretense that I am sinning by being who I am and that in the eyes of God I am disgusting and am going to hell. So, I haven't been to church for YEARS. How can you look at a child (like I was) and tell him/her God doesn't love him/her. How can you tell me that I am in the wrong by loving who I love. That's bullshit.
SO y'all know how many suicides are from someone who was being fucked with by people who are against gays? Not even all of them are gay but it is in everybody's head that even being considered gay is the end of your life. Thus people taking their own. It's a horrible fact that we mist deal with.
How about those of you who have a different opinion on how love should be just SHUT THE FUCK UP. You aren't the one dating/fucking/marrying someone of the same sex. So get the fuck over yourself. Oh, and BTW I am not corrupting your children. All they see are two girls/boys holding hands. They don't even realize the difference. More importantly they don't even CARE!! So why should you? As long as you are going to Heaven for being a good person what does it matter if I go or not? Even though I will because I am a good fucking person like 98% of the time.
Next time you want to say some ignorant comment to a gay person or couple just think to yourself. Is it REALLY that important that they know right then and there how much you are grossed out? Is it worth it to completely kill someone on the inside, or to make them hate themselves?